The Moon insinuates itself into house XII, the house of lockdown and secrets. A need for solitude may prompt you to withdraw from the world. Accept it.
Is it out of love or lack of self-esteem that you have become so withdrawn? Don't blame your partner if he or she takes up too much space, you leave it to him or her and understand that you need to resume it and direct your life again by taking into account your needs, all your needs.
Spying on your ex is not healthy. Through this unfortunate attitude, you want to see how he/she gets back on track, hoping that you meant a lot to this person, that he/she is devastated by your departure. This is a matter of ego and not a matter of the heart, and it is hardly to your credit.
Couple, stop reacting, learn to act by yourself, that is to say according to your personality and not that of your partner. Single, harboring a sense of guilt is not beneficial to anyone. Taking responsibility for your words and actions, whatever they may be, leads to maturity, to the adult level.
You miss the good old days of telecommuting. You knew how to organize yourself, it was only beneficial for you. Your results being more convincing than today, you base your request to telework on this point. Is this really to your advantage?
If you honestly analyze the situation, it has been a long time since your job has been of any interest to you, only the financial compensation is holding you back. Your salary is very comfortable, but you feel trapped and dissatisfied.
Even if it is diffuse, fear too often guides your routine. You miss out on who you are and your body, with its diffuse aches and pains, signals this too.
The unpleasant feeling of sacrificing yourself for your parents dominates. You love them, but you need your siblings to participate too. Tell them that.